It’s funny how things don’t always go the way we thought they would, but in retrospect they turn out they way they needed to be.

About half an hour before writing this, my friend and I went out for a smoke after an evening of movies, and noticed the beautiful moon shining amongst the clouds. As usual, I said good morning!

The Waning moon, a symbol of the Goddess in her phase of Crone, symbolises things that need to come to an end. It is said in many spell books that during the Crone is the perfect time to rid yourself of things, such as habits like smoking or biting your nails. No, I will not be giving up smoking.

A few nights ago I was reading and listening to my iPod on shuffle. I believe that if something needs to happen, then the universe will give you signs. So when three meditations from one particular author came on, I knew it was something I had to do.

I met with two of my spirit guides helping me on my current journey. Two male Native Americans. One, a tribal elder, brought me the gift of wisdom, to help me through the following weeks. The second, who seemed to be in his 20s, brought me the gift of strength. They assured me that the shift in the winds I had been feeling lately was of something to come, and they will help me through this process.

It is funny as that is how it has turned out for me recently. With the waning moon, the end of something that has run its course. Friendships, relationships, weekly trip to Nanna Kook’s, ending with her telling me what was going to happen next on Bold and the Beautiful and always getting it right before annoucing that she should be writing the show.

Those who know me, know that since November I have visited my Nanna each Thursday to help her out as taking care of Poppy had become a bit much as she is getting on. Not to mention the arthritis in her left foot making it hard to do what she normally does. When TAFE started, two weeks after Poppy’s departure from this world into the next, this became Friday’s. This stopped recently since Mum came home, but this week it was the real end of that story, as I had to tell her that I couldn’t continue due to TAFE commitments. I have about 15 assignments to work on, and only a handful completed.

And just now, as I finally noticed the beautiful colours and detail of my 2008 astrological calender, I noticed that even the time of Poppy Kook’s passing, January 29 this year, fell into the phase of the Waning moon. I no longer mourn the loss of my Poppy, but celebrate his life. He was such a strong man who had to deal with so much in his life. Even though I feel guilty for no longer being able to help Nanna out, I know that he is extremely proud of me and the work that I am being able to achieve through my tertiary course. I know that he visits here often, and even Mum has felt his presence by her side.

I love coming to notice the shift of life through the phase of the moon. During the Waxing, the Goddess in her phase of Maiden, a time of new beginnings and fertility, I found the true path that I needed to be on. I’ve been somewhat confused over the last few months, trying to convince myself where I needed to be rather than letting it come to be.

And through this Waning moon, there is one other thing that I feel I need to mention in letting go. I feel that it is time to say good-bye to the name Azayreon. It no longer holds the same feeling as it once did, and I believe because it has been used for everything I hold a connection to online. Myspace, melodramatic, deviantART, youtube, the list goes on.

I have found a new "witch name" as we call it, but this is something so sacred to me I have not even written it down.

By the Waning Moon of March, I release the old and welcome the new. May the Goddess and God, and my spirit guides, direct me down the path I need to follow, for now there is nothing closing my ears to the guidance they will give me.


Blessed Be!
Cara

Hi!

I'm Cara. I'm 23 and from SE Australia (ie. near Melbourne).

My path is a mixture of Wicca and Druidry. I've been pagan for a number of years, started practicing Wicca a few years ago, and realised that what I do in my craft is extremely similar to that of Druidry a few months ago.

I'm a Graphic Design student, finishing next year. I have two dreams: the first is to spend a Midsummer at Stonehenge! The other to work in a design firm in Melbourne before moving overseas. My ancestral lands are England, Ireland and the Netherlands, so it'd be great to go back. I love Australia, but my soul has always yearned for home.

I'm a mother of two beautiful cats, Atlantis and Simba. Until I have kids, I will continue to mother them like a madwoman!

Not sure what else to write as yet...

Blessed Be!

Cara